So much water under the bridge...

Wow! I can hardly believe how much has happened since I last posted. Where to begin...

The IVF cycle was a success! We collected 12 eggs which results in 3 5day blasts, 2 were frozen and one transferred. The embie stuck and we were finally pregnant! I had a smooth, uneventful pregnancy, followed by a long and drawn out birth which finally ended with the beautiful words "Meet you new son". Those words reduced me to tears and I was a total mess as I held my newborn son to my chest. I have never felt such an overwhelming feeling of relief, love, fear and hope all mixed into one. I will most likely post another time about the birth in more detail.

So I am now on maternity leave and looking after my almost 6month old boy Owen. He is the absolute sunshine of my husband and my lives. Every day he brings us joyful laughs and unconditional love. I look into his eyes and feel tears well up in mine. I am reduced to tears on a daily basis when I gaze at the beautiful creation we gave birth to. I never imagine I would feel quite this way. He looks amazingly like my husband, with the most dashing blue eyes and pinchably chubby cheeks. His hands and feet are incredibly soft and he has the most perfect skin.

There is so much more I could write, I could go on all night. But I will sum this post up by saying my life is amazing now. I still feel up and down, I find some things easier than others and some times I struggle to keep positive. But when I think that I could have had a childless life and never felt the touch of my own child's hand on my face or never had to smell my own child's nappy, I know my life could be so much sadder right now.

So here is to living, loving, being loved, and baby kisses.

I am forever grateful.